There is currently a "Fun Size" Snickers bar in the back of our pantry. Hidden. Hidden because I hid it from myself. Out of sight, out of mind, right? It has been there for a while now, maybe a month or two, and my plan was working - I had completely forgotten about it.
This week, in an effort to eat better and make better choices, husband and I decided to take all the candy out of the house. All of it! I took the candy bowl we had on our kitchen counter and dumped that baby right into the trash. Without any remorse!! I filled the bowl with apples and bananas and was relieved to have that temptation removed from my daily sightline.
We have also been working on being more active. Being pregnant, I have a strong tendency to sit around and do nothing (except running around chasing my wild child, K). Because that is more comfortable. More convenient. But that is no more.
Last year, Jordan and I set out to lose weight and get healthy - to be around and set a good example for our kids. Various injuries and health conditions and pregnancy and moving across the country set us back a bit. But we are back in full force! Jordan has his weight goal and is heading right toward it, already down almost 10 pounds! I, on the other hand, have my after-pregnancy goal, but until then, I am working on staying properly hydrated and not looking like a cow by the time this pregnancy is over. Being active now will only make the post-baby goal that much easier.
So back to the candy. I dumped out the candy bowl, feeling empowered, having completely forgotten about the "Fun Size" Snickers lurking in the pantry.
But then it hit me when I was foraging around the kitchen for something to eat yesterday afternoon. I remembered that tiny candy bar. It would have been only too easy to scarf that down like a bowl of hot mac'n'cheese. But I didn't. I ate an apple.
While I was crunching on my delicious honeycrisp apple, I couldn't help but think about that Snickers bar. Not that I wanted it, but that I really didn't. But mostly what I was thinking about was "Why did I hid it in the first place?" If I had really cared about myself and making a change, I would have just thrown it away. Why did I leave it there, as an option, just in case? Was it to make myself stronger, knowing that I was resisting the temptation? If so, why on earth would I do that to myself??
But I know better now. Throwing away the temptation is not taking the easy way out. Throwing away the temptation IS overcoming it.
So I get on that treadmill (because AS IF I'm going to walk outside with a baby in a stroller in January in Iowa), and I drink that water (because pregnant women don't already have to pee every 10 minutes *insert eye roll*), and I eat that fruit.
And I throw away the candy. ALL of it.
Because I am worth more than a Snickers bar. And so are you!
P.S. I can always count on my sweet K to have my back - she made me breakfast
this morning! 😂
Stay strong, friends! You are worth more than your temptation!